Day 244

I want it to NOT get dark at 4:56pm. 

And as I write "want", I have a flashback of standing at the front desk of my hotel in Paris, asking the front desk for directions. Him suggesting I go to Versailles. Me saying next time because there were too many things I wanted to see in Paris. Him mocking me: want want want, I want, I want, I want. In response I told him he is correct, I want a lot. I want it all. And I asked him, well don't you ever want anything? Lerch responds: Sometimes. And what is it that you want, when you want something? I asked. I want to meet God, he answered. Oy, you and everyone else. 

I don't know if that was one of those moments where I should have walked away a little changed, spending the rest of my time in Paris doing good deeds instead of wanting. Because that didn't happen. Not even close.

And I don't know that not wanting anything is better than wanting. Maybe it depends what you want. Either way, do I really say 'I want' that often? Because I don't want to.